Terrified.

On the before side -- May 2017

I am terrified.
Terrified that deep down, you are not
what is good for me.
Terrified. That you won't choose me.
That you won't choose us over you.
Terrified. Terrified that I will
ONLY WANT YOU
because I do.
But you won't want me enough.
Terrified that I want too much
and that is a cavern
that can never be filled.
By anyone. 
Am I more than the others?
I thought that I am.
But I guess this is the part where you


Where you what?
Leave me feeling terrified

?