April 20, 2014

It sucks you in, you're going to drown
But there's no other option--you must go down
It's a flick of the switch, if you fly you must fall
You don't understand what's happening at all
Lies in your ears "you want to feel this way"
And though you want help, you won't hear what they say
To change is an effort you don't want to make
So you go about life but you only feel fake
They think that you're happy; there's no one to trust
Still you can't be alone, to have friends is a must
No matter the reason, it still feels the same
Always bittersweet; it's almost a game
You don't understand how you should feel
It seems like it all is a test of your skill
One day you're happy, the next day you're sad
First knowing exactly, then you can't understand
No motivation, there's nothing to do
Nothing has worth
Not even you
Though in the back of your mind you know it's a lie
That God wouldnt leave you alone to die
So you pray and you pray
And you struggle and scrape
For any part of your life to take brighter shape
It can take a long time, but slowly a gleam
Starts creeping in--you're not alone as you seem
There is no switch, no magical spell
You barely even notice, suddenly all is well
You still have to heal, to forgive and dream
All along God was there, you can be redeemed
It sucks you in, but Christ pulls you out
For He's the only one who knows all your doubt
Only He can understand every ounce of pain
Only He willingly takes it again and again
Only through Christ can suffering be gone
When you and peace can finally be one
If you would only have faith and give your sorrow to Him
HE's always been knocking
YOU let Him in

April 6, 2014

Today is a strange day.
It's as if nothing and everything is smooshed into one day.
Today is an inbetween day.
It's dim in the house. Not light, not dark.
Today feels like it had too much to eat.
Today is a held breath;
A moment to lounge in the staleness of the day.
Today wants to change and stay the same.
Today is taking ages to dash by.
Today is feels like tepid bathwater.
Today is a nothing day.
It needs to change.
Perhaps then it will be a something day.